Bohemian Like You

i have a tattoo. i plan on getting more.

sometimes i wonder (worry) about what it will mean for me in the future.
covering myself with ink prevents a lot of people from getting steady reliable jobs.

i could be a tattoo artist, like one of my idols



but i'm not so gifted in the drawing department.

and then i get to thinking...

why the fuck do i want a steady, reliable boring job?

i don't.

i want to be free.



"The term bohemian was first used in the nineteenth century to describe the untraditional lifestyles of marginalized and impoverished artists, writers, musicians, and actors in major European cities. Bohemians were associated with unorthodox or antiestablishment political or social viewpoints, which were often expressed through extramarital sexual relations, frugality and/or "voluntary poverty"."



i know i was born in the wrong decade.

i should have lived through the 60s and experienced life as a hippie in California.

but since that is kinda impossible now, i will have to live the way i can.



i want to live like igby.

and the characters in 'Rent'

I want to live in a poor town and share a loft with a dozen other starving artists. i want to struggle to pay for the rent and food and have a low paying but fun job and buy everything at thrift stores and just be me. i want to sit at home and not have to worry about things. I want to be able to focus on my art and my spirit.



i want to be like Jude in 'Across the Universe'



i want to be a hippie. i want to be bohemian. i want to set my spirit free. i want to life by my own rules.

Sweet Freedom

if you were to die tonight, would you be able to say you really lived?

i know i probably wouldn't.

i spend most of my time sitting on my couch watching tv and feeling sorry for myself.

there are a lot of shows i plan on going to, but refuse to go alone. if my friends can't make it, neither can i.
and then i come home and sit on the couch feeling sorry for myself.



i know i could have so much more fun in life.
i know that i shouldn't let other people stop me.
so my boyfriend can't make it..

...maybe my soul mate is going to be at the concert tonight.

maybe me being weak is ruining the rest of my life a little more with each bad decision i make.
i let my depression decide if i am going to sit home and binge or go out and have fun.



if we have to live anyway, why not have a good time?
why not enjoy the time we have here?
why not make friends and make memories?
why not act like idiots?
why not go on adventures?
why not live like a movie?
why not take chances?

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so i go to a show alone.
so what.
i'm sure i won't be the only one.
i know there will be someone there i can hang out with.


so let's all take steps to break out of routine.
let's break out of our comfort zone.
let's make new friends.
let's be free.
let's stay up late with ice cream and our best friends.
let's change the world.