I'm Not There

It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
It don't matter, anyhow
An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe
If you don't know by now
When your rooster crows at the break of dawn
Look out your window and I'll be gone
You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on
Don't think twice, it's all right

why did we fall apart?
it feels like just yesterday we were sitting on your couch watching 'the haunting.'
i guess it wouldn't matter if i told you now that I wasn't really scared..

i just wanted you to hold me.
it was one of the best feelings in the world.

but i guess i just wasn't enough for you.



It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
That light I never knowed
An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe
I'm on the dark side of the road
Still I wish there was somethin' you would do or say
To try and make me change my mind and stay
We never did too much talkin' anyway
So don't think twice, it's all right

my mistakes have caught up with me and all i can do it regret
i wish it was still you kissing me. i hope someday it will be.
i don't think you understand how much i miss you.
do you ever think about me?



It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
Like you never did before
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal
I can't hear you any more
I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' all the way down the road
I once loved a woman, a child I'm told
I give her my heart but she wanted my soul
But don't think twice, it's all right

you can still call me if you wan't.
i may not be able to hear you.
but i promise to try.
i need you with me.
it isn't the same knowing that tomorrow won't be any better.
you made my summer the best ever.



I'm walkin' down that long, lonesome road, babe
Where I'm bound, I can't tell
But goodbye's too good a word, gal
So I'll just say fare thee well
I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind
You could have done better but I don't mind
You just kinda wasted my precious time
But don't think twice, it's all right

is this what you think of me?

Life, Interrupted

Now I lay me down to sleep,
I pray the Lord my soul to keep;
And if I die before I wake,
I pray the Lord my soul to take.



no ranting, no complaining, no philosophy

tonight, i am simply existing.



so i'm a little sadder than usual tonight, oh well.

i can't remember ever feeling so alone on my entire life.
we were so close but things changed.
why doesn't he want to talk to me?
what did i do wrong?



yesterday he was holding me.
i have never felt so safe.
but it almost feels like it isn't worth the pain of my heart ripping when he leaves.
it gets worse every time.



i wonder how my eulogy will sound.
will anyone come to the funeral?
i would call them all hypocrites because they all deserted me in life.
will anyone grant my last wishes?
will anyone care?



i don't want to think this way anymore.
i don't want to hurt anymore.

Susanna: I didn't try to kill myself.
Dr. Potts: What were you trying to do?
Susanna: I was trying to make the shit stop.

-Girl, Interrupted



i don't want to miss you like this.
i want you here.
i want you to die.
i want you to leave him.
i want you to walk out.
i want you to walk back in.