i looked for rape statistics on the difference between halloween and the rest of the year, but i couldn't find anything. therefore, i can not be sure that more people are sexually assaulted on halloween, but i certainly would not be surprised.
i am pretty sure when she put on her outfit, she wasn't expecting anything but a good time. going to a party with some friends.
she gets thirsty.
OH NO!
someone saw her in her cute costume and decided to spike her drink.
she ends up raped, maybe dead.
still worth a night of fun that you will never remember because of all the alcohol?
The origin of Halloween is that it was the one day of the year that the disembodied spirits of all those who had died throughout the preceding year would come back in search of living bodies to possess for the next year. It was believed to be their only hope for the afterlife. The Celts believed all laws of space and time were suspended during this time, allowing the spirit world to intermingle with the living.
Naturally, the still-living did not want to be possessed. So on the night of October 31, villagers would extinguish the fires in their homes, to make them cold and undesirable. They would then dress up in all manner of ghoulish costumes and noisily paraded around the neighborhood, being as destructive as possible in order to frighten away spirits looking for bodies to possess.
i ran out of potential love interests and we all fucked each other over.
he was the boy who claimed a lot of my firsts. but not as many as i would have liked.
now i have not a single boy to pursue me.
when i am lonely, i have no one to talk to. i have no where to go. i have no one to kiss. i have no on to hold. i have no one to take the rest of my firsts.
i wanted it to be soon. but i guess that won't be happening.
I am the only one of my friends who is a virgin. I'm not ashamed of it or whatever. I think it is part of life.
i am upset about being a virgin because I feel like no one has ever wanted me. I never had to stop anyone from moving to fast in a relationship. I would have fucking let you. i would have.
but you didn't. we stopped and drove home.
i wanted you so bad. i still do.
but i know i won't get it.
i am a virgin. i don't want to be a virgin. And I see no way of changing the situation.
i can count the times i met him on one hand, but i had a really hard time at his funeral today.
i didn't know what had happened until after the service. and when i realized it was a suicide everything was different.
i would be lying if i said it didn't bring back suicidal thoughts in my head.
i saw his mother and brother crying, and i felt for them. the world lost a great man.
the service was in remembrance of the wonderful life he led and to reflect on the good memories.
it made me think that when i die, however and whenever that may be, i can be remembered for the good i did. the worries that fill my head after that thought are along the lines of 'would anyone really come to my funeral?' or 'would anyone even notice or care if i died?'
Nikki Sixx said that attending a funeral made him feel alive. it made him see how beautiful life is and changed him.
this funeral did the exact opposite for me.
it made me feel even more dead inside. more hopeless.
my uncle was 46 and his death showed me something..
what if it isn't going to get any better? what if i am going to be this sad forever? what if i spend the rest of my life wishing i were dead?
i made him a mixtape. yes, a TAPE. i hope he will know it was me. i hope he listens to it and loves it. i hope he will think of me.
1) Dig- Incubus "If I turn into another/dig me up from under what is covering/the better part of me. "
2) Boats and Birds- Gregory & the Hawk but you can skyrocket away from me/and never come back if you find another galaxy/far from here with more room to fly/just leave me your stardust to remember you by
3) Treehouse- I'm From Barcelona I have built a treehouse/Nobody can see us/it's a you and me house
4) Back In Your Head- Tegan & Sara i just want back in your head/I'm not unfaithful but I'll stray
5) In Bed All Day- Tilly and the Wall I want to come over/I wanted to say/There's nobody else that I want to stay/in bed all day
6) Oh! Darling- The Beatles Oh! Darling, if you leave me/I'll never make it alone/Believe me when I beg you/Don't ever leave me alone
7) Please Don't Let It Go- HIM We're drifting apart/But I want you to know/Wherever you are I belong
8) Sweet Tangerine- The Hush Sound Sweet tangerine, will you please come back to me?/Cause I don't think that these feelings are gonna leave
9) Second Chances- October Fall I will stand outside, wait for you to come find me/I will keep on my light by my bed till you get home/i won't sleep tonight/until you get home
10) Swing Life Away- Rise Against If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end/I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
11) Half Alive- Secondhand Serenade And I was trying to disappear/But you got me wrapped around you/I can hardly breathe without you
12) Maps- Yeah Yeah Yeahs Wait/They don’t love you like I love you
13) I Go To The Barn Because I Like The- Band of Horses i'll wait/for you to come down/where you'll find me
14) Love Will Tear Us Apart- Nouvelle Vague Why is the bedroom so cold/Turned away on your side?/Is my timing that flawed/Every feeling run so dry?
15) Apologize- OneRepublic I'd take another chance, take a fall/Take a shot for you/And I need you like a heart needs a beat/But it's nothin new
i will do whatever it takes to make things right again.
I'm holding on your rope, Got me ten feet off the ground I'm hearin what you say but I just can't make a sound You tell me that you need me Then you go and cut me down, but wait You tell me that you're sorry Didn't think I'd turn around, and say...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
this song speaks to me on several different levels. one, is me singing it my (ex)best friend.
a series of events and mistakes (on both of our parts) destroyed us. no matter what was done or said, she would not accept my apology.
i can picture her singing this to me.
I'd take another chance, take a fall Take a shot for you And I need you like a heart needs a beat But it's nothin new I loved you with a fire red- Now it's turning blue, and you say... "Sorry" like the angel heaven let me think was you But I'm afraid...
It's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
the second way is to a boy.
time and distance separated and at the first sight of trouble, i ran away. i can see him singing this to me.
i hope i never will, but i can see it.
he might have a hard time and maybe even a tear in his eye but i can see why he wouldn't want to give me another chance.
i am very good at screwing up good relationships.
leaving him was my third major mistake of the past summer. i regret it every day.
It's too late to apologize, it's too late I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late It's too late to apologize, yeah I said it's too late to apologize, yeah- I'm holdin on your rope, got me ten feet off the ground...
It ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe It don't matter, anyhow An' it ain't no use to sit and wonder why, babe If you don't know by now When your rooster crows at the break of dawn Look out your window and I'll be gone You're the reason I'm trav'lin' on Don't think twice, it's all right
why did we fall apart? it feels like just yesterday we were sitting on your couch watching 'the haunting.' i guess it wouldn't matter if i told you now that I wasn't really scared..
i just wanted you to hold me. it was one of the best feelings in the world.
but i guess i just wasn't enough for you.
It ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe That light I never knowed An' it ain't no use in turnin' on your light, babe I'm on the dark side of the road Still I wish there was somethin' you would do or say To try and make me change my mind and stay We never did too much talkin' anyway So don't think twice, it's all right
my mistakes have caught up with me and all i can do it regret i wish it was still you kissing me. i hope someday it will be. i don't think you understand how much i miss you. do you ever think about me?
It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal Like you never did before It ain't no use in callin' out my name, gal I can't hear you any more I'm a-thinkin' and a-wond'rin' all the way down the road I once loved a woman, a child I'm told I give her my heart but she wanted my soul But don't think twice, it's all right
you can still call me if you wan't. i may not be able to hear you. but i promise to try. i need you with me. it isn't the same knowing that tomorrow won't be any better. you made my summer the best ever.
I'm walkin' down that long, lonesome road, babe Where I'm bound, I can't tell But goodbye's too good a word, gal So I'll just say fare thee well I ain't sayin' you treated me unkind You could have done better but I don't mind You just kinda wasted my precious time But don't think twice, it's all right
This blog is for my ranting and thinking. I relate to movies and music a lot. The music player above this is for important songs that may be referenced somewhere in my sea of words.
