oh mother, be stronger

i'm pregnant. i'm pregnant. i'm pregnant.

it is quite possible that she was right all along. that boy was just there for me because i was not over cameron. i still am not. we haven't spoken in months. several months. we didn't end on good terms. i miss him so much. i have to hide it from everyone.

sunnie is friends with him again. it's not fair. why does she get to be close to him?

i'm keeping the baby. the boy doesn't know. i don't know how to tell him. i refuse to take him back.
my whole family is behind me. i owe them everything. my first doctors appointment tomorrow morning. i am scared and excited all at the same time. i still can't believe i am going to be a mother.


The Green Eggs Were Just Moldy

Dr. Seuss was a children's author.
When I was a child I would spend hours trying to figure out what he was saying. Now that I am older, it just seems he was really high.

I can read in red. I can read in blue.
I can read in pickle color too.
I can read in bed, and in purple, and in brown.
I can read in a circle and upside down.

-I Can Read With My Eyes Shut (1978)

The illustrations as well. Wow.