i'll never bow down at your feet

wow. it has been a really long time.

until today, i have been cut/purge free.

about half an hour ago. i cut a lot.
i am currently bingeing.

cameron dumped me about a week ago. yet still tells me he is going to marry me and have kids with me.
however, he shared some information with me.
he is dating lizzy again.


i told cameron i would not cut anymore. he said he didn't want to deal with it.
he said a while ago that we would be over if i started again.

now what?
i can cut all i want and he can't do a damn thing.
i have nothing to lose anymore.

i don't give a fuck about anything.
as of a few hours ago, i don't care.

nothing is worth it.
people will just let you down.
and you will still have to get up and go to work the next morning.

well now, i don't care.
so i don't finish school, big deal.
so i die really really young, who cares.
everyone will forget soon enough.

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