my mind plays tricks on me.
i think it is a combination of romance, hollywood, and a wild imagination.
i wish i could change it.
what happens is that i always expect the best in every situation.
my birthday was on tuesday.
my dad had told me that he had made plans for us.
my mind immediately runs wild.
i imagine this magical scene where he plans this party with all of my friends and cameron is there with a present.
it is like a dream.
i obviously knew that none of that was going to happen in a million years.
but i couldn't help it.
i think it's all the movies i watch.
life isn't a fucking fairy tale.
but my mind seems to think it's possible.
it builds me up, then i am ALWAYS disappointed.
and i don't know how to change it.