Wouldn't Come Home For The World

so i really love the song "walking disaster" by Sum 41



I haven't been home for a while
I'm sure everything's the same
Mom and Dad both in denial
An only child to take the blame

Sorry, Mom, but I don't miss you
Father's no name you deserve
I'm just a kid with no ambitions
Wouldn't come home for the world

Never know what I've become
The king of all that's said and done
The forgotten son

This city's buried in defeat
I walk along these no-name streets
Wave goodbye to home

At the dead-end I begin
To burn a bridge of innocence
Satisfaction guaranteed
A pillow-weight catastrophe

Our own mission nowhere bound
Inhibitions underground
A shallow grave I
Have dug all by myself

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me

As far as I can tell
It's just voices in my head
Am I talking to myself?
'Cause I don't know what I just said

(And she said)
As far as where I fell
Maybe I'm better off dead
Am I at the end of nowhere
Is this as good as it gets?

And now I've been gone for so long
I can't remember who was wrong
All innocence is long gone
I pledge allegiance to a world of disbelief
Where I belong

A walking disaster
The son of all bastards
You regret you made me
It's too late to save me

I will be home in a while
You don't have to say a word
I can't wait to see you smile
Wouldn't miss it for the world

yet another song that hits home for me.
whenever i sing this, i imagine that i wrote it and it is autobiographical.



let's pretend the subjects name is kevin.
here's what he looks like.



his whole life, his parents kept him in this bubble. he was sheltered and overprotected and alone.
we know he is an only child and if you don't know what that's like..

being an only child is like being a celebrity.
everyone knows everything about you, you can never get away from the attention and when something goes wrong, it is automatically your fault.

so it's hell.

so all kevin wants to do is get out. he wants to run as far away as he can.
doesn't know what he wants to do, but doesn't care as long as he isn't home.

in fact, he doesn't ever plan on ever going home.
he claims that he doesn't miss his mother and that he might as well not have a father.
he tells them he doesn't care anymore.



he realizes life on the streets isn't easy. now he is stuck in a whole he dug for himself. but there is no one to help him out anymore.

he is afraid all innocence is lost and nothing will ever be ok again.
he finally admits that nothing he had hoped for worked out and maybe it was a mistake.
but he still won't come home.



"you regret you made me.
It's too late to save me"

a little longer on his own and he thinks maybe it's all just a bad dream.
maybe he is fine and it's all in his head.

but what if it isn't?
what if he is going to die on these streets?
what if things will never get better?



in the end, he decided to bury the hatchet and go home to the people who care about him.


sometimes we have to lose what we love to see how much it really means to us.
we test relationships to see how much they really care.
sometimes when we think we don't need anyone, we really do.

kevin knows he can't rely on his parents forever, but sometimes you need a hand to hold along the way.