I Need You Like Water In My Lungs

so i basically live my life through song lyrics and movie quotes.

most of my favorite lyrics are written by Jesse Lacey of Brand New.

their most recent album, The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me, is personally, one of the best albums ever released. Every single song hits home emotionally and I never skip any of them.

Not too much is known about Jesse except what we hear in his writing, and when I listen to one of his songs..it's like I have known him forever and he is telling me his deepest darkest secrets. the kind of things you would only tell your best friend.

I relate to him a lot.

"I used to pray a God was listening.
I used to make my parents proud.
I was the glue that kept my friends together,
Now they don't talk and we don't go out.

I used to know the name of every person I kissed.
Now I've made this bed and I can't fall asleep in it."


i think this is my favorite part of the entire "Devil and God" album.
to me, i think "Millstone" is his confessions about how his entire life has changed. whether it's from depression, or just plain apathy.

I can relate to this a lot. I went through the same transformation. to the point where i didn't care about anything. i stopped caring about school, my friends, my safety. I hardly ever showed up for school and my grades took a nose dive. I ended up not being able to pass and pulled out around february. I think this is why "Millstone" speaks to me much more than many other songs. It's like Jesse wrote it about me.

"Hey, you beauty supreme.
Yeah, you were right about me.
But can I get myself out from underneath
This guilt that will crush me
In the choir, I saw our sad Messiah.
He was bored and tired of my laments.
He said, "I died for you one time, but never again"


Every time I hear this song I still tear up. This was written about a girl who died in a car accident. I forget the whole story but it is definiately one of the saddest songs on the album. This is my favorite part of it, as well.

He is telling her that he loves her but will continue living his life because that is what she would want him to do.

In this album, Jesse makes a lot of references to God and his faith. I grew up in a Christian home but after 16 years, I finally realized that I have no idea why I believed why I did. I set out to find the truth and have yet to find anything...i guess you can call me agnostic.

The reason I say this, is because in all of the mentions of God in Jesse's lyrics, there are sorrowful and full of doubt. For example, as stated before in "Millstone", he prayed that God was really listening. This shows the doubt he had in his heart that there was really a God in the first place.

In "Limousine", he basically says, "Yeah, there's a God. But he's sick of us and gave up all hope of saving us." He is telling us, "God doesn't care anymore. He died for us, but we didn't appreciate it so he won't do it again. It's our own fault this world is fucked up."

"So they say, they say in Heaven
There's no husbands and wives.
On the day that I show up
They'll be completely out of their forgiveness supply.
And I can't use the telephone, to tell you that I'm dead and gone,
So you won't know
You won't know.
You won't know. "

-"You Won't Know"

Last but not least, my favorite song on "The Devil and God Are Raging Inside Me" I cry during this song. And if the lyrics above don't make you sad, you are a robot.

Jesse mentions the same name of a girl that he did in "Limousine" which could lead us to believe that this is also written to her. But we are also lead to believe this was written before the other one. "Limousine" was written in such a way that the mother of the girl, Kay (as we are told), is speaking to her. "You Won't Know", is obviously from her lover.

In song order on the album, "Limousine" is heard before "You Won't Know", but it sounds like they should be switched. "Limousine" is a song to her after she has died and "You Won't Know" is for when her lover dies and leaves her behind. (My interpretation of it anyway)

In conclusion, these are only three of the dozens of reasons why Jesse Lacey will always have a special place in my life.

here he is:


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